dont you know when i say no, i meant yes♥

I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.
I AM SAD, I AM MOODLESS, I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY.

who cares anyway, well apparently nobody.
but i want to talk to somebody.
but its hard to open up when you have been hurt too many times to count.
sometimes, its better to be alone.
this way, nobody can hurt you in any way.
fuck life ttm.

sorry for this.
goodbye.

我怎么舍得让你了解我的心♥

i am kindda feeling moodless again.
so i'm gonna spam a few chinese song lyrics.

王心如-到底爱怎么了
角落的沙发还坐着爱的你
你的幸运离我而去
为何我一次一次
原谅了背叛的你
你却不懂我的忧郁

谁能够让我爱的不必在意
没有太多坏的情绪
总是用一词一句
编成真实的甜蜜
我只想要这样而已

到底爱怎么了
我并不知道
我只是一直习惯为爱付出
不说心里的苦 多么错误
到这一刻我才有一些领悟

到底爱怎么了
我还不知道
没有你我能不能面对孤独
你的眼神盲目
多么清楚
我已经不是你所想要的那种幸福

谁能够让我爱的不必在意
没有太多坏的情绪
总是用一词一句
编成真实的甜蜜
我只想要这样而已

到底爱怎么了
我并不知道
我只是一直习惯为爱付出
不说心里的苦 多么错误
到这一刻我才有一些领悟

到底爱怎么了
我还不知道
没有你我能不能面对孤独
你的眼神盲目
多么清楚
我已经不是你所想要的那种幸福

到底爱怎么了
我并不知道
我只是一直习惯为爱付出
不说心里的苦 多么错误
到这一刻我才有一些领悟

到底爱怎么了
我还不知道
没有你我能不能面对孤独
你的眼神盲目
多么清楚
我已经不是你所想要的那种幸福

萧亚轩-倒数
怎么我会说太晚了你不用送
其实我想说可不可以不要走
唱一段歌 歌尾奏已经结束
突然我们都沉默 你不敢看我

讨厌这样我们都有话藏著不说
你总是那麽处处在意我
越害怕伤害我 我感觉越难受
你不懂 我没你想象脆弱

热情结束以后 冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿 劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数 还能爱多久
不爱我请离开我

勇敢祝福以前 找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候 并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数 开始忘记
知道你的爱 你确定不是我

下一个周末会不会就各自过
渐渐少联络这样算不算分手
我会想念你亲吻你拥抱
但我不想欺骗我 真实的感受

讨厌这样爱变质后谁都不认得
情人终究不一定变朋友
越相互关心著 越加速疏远了
别触碰 我在深藏的笑容

热情结束以后 冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿 劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数 还能爱多久
爱我请离开我

勇敢祝福以前 找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候 并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数 开始忘记
值得你的爱 你确定不是我

是不是从前我们太懒惰
让任性妄想反方向移动 直到看不清楚
说出那一句谢谢你
眼泪突然夺眶而出 快要不能自己
难 很困难 再这样说的多快乐

热情结束以后 冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿 劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数 还能爱多久
不爱我请离开我

勇敢祝福以前 找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候 并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数 开始忘记 我们都爱过

热情结束以后 冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿 劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数 还能爱多久
不爱我请离开我

勇敢祝福以前 找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候 并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数 开始忘记
值得你的爱 你确定不是我

选择了艰难的路走
我相信这样是对的

永邦-转瞬为风
找不到脸上熟悉的微笑
我的梦还停搁在很美的争吵
那一幕时光被风吹拂曲折的隧道
我追着你拼命奔跑

你握着被风吹乱的衣角
让阳光穿越树荫偷吻你眉梢
来不及伸手拥抱着你赤裸的心跳
你忽然消失在转角

当星光慢慢地浮现
微风掠过我身边
我才发现是你偷走我的光年

舍不得把你放逐在昨天
就留你伴随到永远
然后我闭上双眼
幸福感觉从未曾改变

放不下是你无法切割的执著
多希望重新爱过
让眼泪可以逆留
我所有悸动逆风降落

当我们更加成熟
爱过了某某才会懂
学着放爱转瞬变成风

找不到脸上熟悉的微笑
我的梦还停搁在很美的争吵
那一幕时光被风吹拂曲折的隧道
我追着你一直到老

当星光慢慢地浮现
微风掠过我身边
我才发现是你偷走我的光年
舍不得把你放逐在昨天
就留你伴随到永远
然后我闭上双眼
幸福感觉从未曾改变

不想是你无法切割的执著
多希望重新爱过
让眼泪可以为逆留
我所有悸动逆风降落

当我们更加成熟
爱过了某某再回头
学着放爱转瞬变成风

不想是你无法切割的执著
多希望重新爱过
让眼泪可以为逆留
我所有悸动逆风降落

当我们更加成熟
爱过了某某再回头
学着放爱转瞬变成风

i'm duper sad now. i'm gonna go walk walk.
goodbye!
♥

you dont know how much you mean to me♥

hello guys. :D sorry for not posting lately.
and also for my sudden mood swing.
anyway, i'll just do a summary for these few days yeah? O:

hmmmm, on wednesday, wasnt supposed to come to school.
but came to do th vietnam trip powerpoint with yuxuan, belinda and qianhui. :D
it was kindda fun! and duper retarded. ha
i had training tat day, but skipped it because we only left tat few pathetic days to finish our slides. D:
i'm in love with belinda's mp3! :D debbie's too!
i wanna buy many many many stuff! jiayou thm

anyway, chionged th day in th cold cold library.
then went back to class to organize lit fiesta props by myself.

it was kindda peaceful being alone.

called my daddy fetch me home.
suddenly felt moodless and went PMS. D:
chionged some lit fiesta but fell asleep. O.o wtf

came to school on thursday and prepared for lit.
i had loads of fun spraying ppl hair with colours! woot. :D
i had purple and red hair for th day. <3
but ron low scolded. heck care, yay!
went for bball interclass and random with xiaoting! fun~
then went to wash my hair. Zzz, i became a wet ghost. D: wtf
slacked awhile, and went moodless again.
alone in classroom is nice!

then went to library to complete our slides with vinita, belinda, yuxuan and qianhui! :D
debbie, lingen, winnie and annabel came to pei us too!
finished and carried books out with vinita to wait for our daddies! :D
daddy fetched me home, bathed.
listened songs and slept.

headed to school as usual on friday.
then had prize presentation. :D yay, 2e6 ownage<3
then went to clear our classroom and collected our report books.
then went for vietnam trip briefing. (:
then rushed to training. :D
it was fun fun fun fun fun ttm! :D
went to buy bubbletea with lingen and debbie. then all of us cabbed home! :D
bathed, and got kindda sad. D:
walked in th rain for a while and decided to skip vietnam trip night briefing. O.o
cabbed to melanie's house for party! :D yay yay yay!
fun fun! :D made many new friends. (:
btw, debbie and lingen keep bully small kids! O: evil D:<
anyway, played till 11plus.
then headed home with jeslinda, jinguan and venet. (:
bathed and slept already.

today
woke up feeling restless.
kept listening songs and watch tv.
now smsing debbie. (:
倒数 by elva is duper nice! :D th mv is nice too. :D
anyway, i'll update again later.
and post lyrics too!
bye readers!
♥

心酸把我给吞没♥

Hello, i'm just here to apologize tat i'm not gonna blog much today. I am not feeling well, plus 2moro is th lit fiesta finals(?), and i have to do many many stuff. I feel lyk i'm a two-sided person. In school, i am cheerful, but once i get home, my heart stops beating.

And i just realize i dont really have a super super superfriend who i can talk to. If i said all my secrets, nobody would see me as me.

Anyway, i'm having giant PMS now. Do you even care?
Sorry.

And bye.
♥

perhaps i still love you♥

hello da jia hao~ :D
i'm lyk desperate for colour contacts ttm! :D

anyway, had basketball interclass matches this few days.
duper duper duper fun!
2e6 did great! :D ownage man.
we won 2nd, only lost to 2n1, again! D: stupid dumbshit. O:
but we still rock everyone die. yay!
me and xiaoting were practically dying during th match vs 2n1! D:<
i grew fat, and now i cant run. O: wtf, LOL.
helped out for sec3 interclass too!
fun fun fun but was rather tired. ):

hmmm, we had this leadership workshop as well. i had fun i guess?
me and germaine even got to play this stupid monkey game .__________. ha.
and coach sean was somewhat funny! :D
he said this quote, " people build walls not to keep others away,
but to see who cares enough to knock them down. " :D
i posted this quote in a picture before!
duper meaningful alright! <3

anyway, today went to YOG center! :D
paired with dearest vinita! <3
camwhore duper duper much! :D love love love~
shall post them some other time.
th YOG thingy was duper boring! O: except th tabletennis part, and randoming around. :D laughed die.

slack awhile with vinita after school while waiting for yuxuan and belinda. :D
then debbie, ling'en, jingling and shannon joined us.
went to amk hub to watch 500days of summer! :D
th movie was okay? just a bit lame and random~ O: LOL.
th ending was stupid O.o
shopped awhile before going home.
i'm tired already. D:
and i suddenly pms.
fuck die. D:
sian, i'll update again soon.
bye readers!
♥

if you ever feel lyk letting go♥

hello peeps! :D
sorry for not posting for duper duper duper long! oppps.
i was busy and lazy :X ha.
anyway, i forgotten much stuff bout wat happened
so i'm not gonna do a summary. D:
dui bu qi okay~ O:

i just remembered going out with debbie lyk almost everyday ._______.
ling'en, yuxuan and vinita too! :D
oh, we went tampanies mall, kbox, plaza sing, wildwildwet and many many places! :D
fun fun fun fun fun ttm!
and i go home duper late.
i remembered going ehub with debbie til way past midnight. O:
then i had to take taxi home O.o
oh, wildwildwet was fun! :D orange is love~ :D
i'm looking forward to going there again. yay!

anyway, this few days were mass production of hand-made dolls! :D
everyone support 2e6's jumble sale yeah? <3
i have this stupid leadership workshop. O: sian die~

anyway, my overall results suck.
i shall not elaborate. D:

yesterday went out with debbie again.
we went kbox sing till 11plus? O:
almost missed th last bus home. but made it. (:
i went debbie's house overnight! :D
fun fun fun fun fun~
reached there at 12midnight? O:
then jiu sleep luh. dirty pig~
2 people squeeze one single bed can die. D:
i am proud to say i never sleep much! :D and debbie slept dead. yay!
ha, went back home in th afternoon.
bathed, and went to see doctor with mama. ):
i am sick with flu. D:
i hope it wont spread to debbie.

okay, spam photos luh! :D
1 more week til byebye school! jiayou thm. <3





hulingen is so shy! :D









omfg, they are couple die! :D



PEEKABOO! :D
debbie ngopeishan is childish!































ha, toupai! :D



RETARDED~ O:
but still uber cute!
hulingen, yaya i love ue luh. :D





























DEBBIE(L)~ :D



LINGEN(L)~ :D






















act cute ttm! O:






















i heart my gay partners! :D







patrick star is cuter(x10000000000) than debbie ngo peishan! :D





























wtf, i look retarded. D:
and SHORTER THAN DEBBIE! D:
insult die~

































debbie look so gay. O:









elephant! :D
your name shall be called jorden! <3



jordon love kissing debbie's butt! :D







vinita's snake is raping my jordon! O:





JORDONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN~ <3





































ha, i caught vinita's in th mirror! :D






















me and vinita were duper paiseh. O:
coz yuxuan and debbie were being lame .__________________.
























ha, blur face. O.o
























th uncle was using th tiger to scare th baby. O.o
me and vinita laughed die. D:



yuxuan looks so cute! :D






















me love ducks! :D






















vinita tot i was in th mirror too.
._____________________.
ha, yay yay yay!































we look retarded.
kuku face die~ O:



JORDON HAS A NEW GIRLFRIEND! :D






















love drunk. :D


























i took her photo, and she took mine. O.o






















wtf, debbie is soooooo {act} cute! :D





























kbox is loved ttm!







JORDON'S GIRLFRIEND! :D
pink love.































toupai! :D
but yuxuan saw me, and twisted. O:


























vinita looks dumb .____________.
and cute! :D
we were taking photos of each other. O.o
ha, i'll laughed at this for th next 5 seconds. :D
yay!









random die~





wildwildwet loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :D


























seoul garden! :D
yummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmy~






















wtf O.o



yuxuan and debbie were being stupid.






























i heart fries! <3






















they were dancing! O.o
wtf .___.




































i can take your pics too okay! O:





JORDON'S GIRLFRIEND IS CUTE TTM! :D


































kbox again! :D
fun fun sing sing fun fun sing sing! yay :D














i finally finished uploading 1/3 of my photos. O:
shall spam photos another day ba! :D
okay, schools's 2moro.
i have to sleep soon, i'm tired ttm. D:

fuck all those mood swings,
i'm a bitch for loving you.
everything i do, everything i see, reminds me of you.
i hate leaving you.
i missed all those times i've spent with you.
but i know we cannot be together.
i guess all i can do is move on,
and forget.
but i lost my trust in ♥

i'm thinking of another blog url,
changing blogskin soon too. O:

okay, i want to sleep luh.
i have to find a way to escape reality.
bye readers!
♥