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now 1am?
sad.
tired.
sad.
tired.
D:
moody can.
mixed feelings.

damm pissed of with homework.
and projects.
teachers stupid de.
weekends are for rest.
yet piles of homework + project.
somemore due so soon.
esp projectwork.
our song half way only luh.
still have to sing.
record.
make mv.
make behind th scene.
complete our website.
and teacher expect us to sing in perfect tune?
please luh.
not even teachers can sing perfect pitch luh!
walao.
damm stressed with competition, training, tests and other more.
and teacher still add load.
fuck them luh.
go die better.
D:

homework piled up
in school.
coz neh bring home.
sian.
i shall chiong half in school.
and get scolded for not doing th other half.
hate school now.
at least 80% hate it.
shall pon all school days tat dont have bball training.
feel lyk faking sickness on tuesday.
try ba?
but i'll miss ce.
):

feel lyk screaming.
but i knw no one will listen.
maybe my dad.
coz he got install some high-tech security system at home.
all corners have can.
my room also!
now he can hear and see watever i doing.
so have to change in toilet frm now on.
argh.
sian luh.
feel lyk jumping down building.
wonder how tat feels?
relieved i guess.
D:

and there are some ppl.
jibai de.
make my dad so messed up.
and hor.
there's this uncle
no ahpeh.
act friends with my daddy for 10 years?
then join my dad company.
become manager luh.
knw all secrets.
steal workers over
and open new company.
tat does th exact same thing as my dad!
~!@#$%^&*~!@#$%^&*
seriously go die luh.
die
die
die
die
die
die.

my world is messed up.
life used to be so good in primary school.
i'm popular.
head prefect
head of choir
captain of netball team.
even though so many duties
studies still good.
no prob at home.
good relationship with everyone.
and 99% always get wat i wan.

now?
all i can say is stress!
and expectations.
and not reaching target.
and life became judgemental.
and unfairness aroused.
and ppl starts being biased.
and two-faced.
and liars are everywhere.
and my family seems broken.
daddy not home coz working.
mummy sad coz daddy not home.
grandma fell down broke her leg
then cannot walk.
elder sister studies in art school
so overseas a lot of time.
th only person pei me is 2nd sister.
but she is busy.
can i just die?
):

somemore dear is sick.
and i wan him concentrate on studies.
AHHHH!
i cant take this anymore.

just listen-ed to i miss you
by miley cyrus.
still okay.
brings back sad memories.
and i cant seem to forget him.
sorry dear.
D:

somemore...
somemore...
somemore...
argh.
cant talk here.
in need of debbie and jinx.
but they asleep ba?
sad.

i seriously need a way to settle everything.
dealth god.
take me away peacefully.
to heaven to meet god.
and make everyone forget me.
so nobody will miss me.
and no tears will be wasted.
sian.
sad.
moody.
argh.

i miss you
post again soon?
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