Its 4am now and i'm awake. I'm breaking down again, soon. I really cant hold on anymore, everything just blasted right at my face this few weeks. I failed 5 subjects, and merely passing the others by a few marks. My homework isnt catching up and i dont understand a single shit in class. I need help but i've got no time. There's geography challenge which expects me to be present everyday.
And i ran right into a damm wall and got a cut on my forehead. Blood was everywhere, now there's a fugly scar and bandage. Parents aint giving me a break at all, i have a new and earlier curfew. They collaborated with th school to keep an eye on me 24 hours. I cant make it on time and i'll be cabbing home everyday. Now, i'm short of money so i'm skipping recess.
Havent been attending training because there's tat geo challenge and coach is letting me off this week as i'm injured. Joining back soon as draws for nationals will be out soon, and i know trainings are gonna get tougher. I am already struggling with my back, which pain keeps repeatedly comes back. It hurts a lot.
I'm afraid i cant cope, i dont think i can. Why does everything have to hit me straight onto my face this year? I really dont wan anything bad to happen. I wanna run away, sorry i'm th kind of person who'll just escape when a problem comes.
Its because i'm afraid, and i'm lonely.
And i've developed something else, now i hate those nights when th full moon come and i'm alone.
Colbie Caillat's I Never Told You
I miss those blue eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep
Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe
But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in
And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
and after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you
I see your blue eyes
Everytime I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to
When I'm not around you
It's like I'm not with me
But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in
And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
and after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you
But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in
And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
and after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you
Sorry baby for this moody post, i had fun today though.
HAPPY 4 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY!
I LOVE YOU OH SO MUCH!
Post a dedication tmr? <3
Xiaoting, i'll upload th pictures soon. I'm v tired.
Bye readers, i tired, of sleeping.
I stared at this page, and now it's 4.30am. fml, i wanna runaway.
Yours faithfully, Hm.
♥