Hai, march holidays ended last week. I was just too lazy to post anything, plus my mood isnt much stable yet. But i'm gonna be a happy girl.
Thanks geo challenge peeps for doing th video, and sorry for not helping in any way. ): I didnt had free time or energy. This week took a huge deal from me, wasnt able to cope with it. Oh ya, normal lessons went on. And i realised i became super lazy this year. Have to find time to study SERIOUSLY soon!
First day of school, i cried. Parents was called to school to meet teachers, and i just teared there and then. Now, i'm totally watched 24hours luh, curfew curfew curfew! Every adult is a twoface bitch. FML
I'm damm pissed over this. I SERIOUSLY DONT GET TH FUCKING PROBLEM WITH THEM, WAT DID I DO WRONG? ONE SMALL MISTAKE OVERLOOK MY ENTIRE SUCCESS FOR MY 14 YEAR OLD LIFE. PARENTS NEVER SEEM TO BE PROUD OF YOU, THEY CAN ONLY SEE TH MISTAKES YOU MAKE BUT NOT TH ACHIEVEMENTS YOU ACHIEVE. WERE YOU ALL PROUD OF ME WHEN I BECAME TH HEAD PREFECT OF TH SCHOOL, CAPTAIN OF NETBALL TEAM, LEADER OF SCHOOL CHOIR? I REPRESENT TH SCHOOL GO COMPETITION AND GOT HIGHEST IN SCHOOL FOR GEPGRAPHY, WERE THEY PROUD OF ME? NO, NEVER.
THEY DONT UNDERSTAND A SINGLE SHIT OF MY LIFE. TEACHERS TELL ME TO TALK TO THEM? I TALK EQUALS TO ME BEING RUDE AS THEY THINK I'M TALKING BACK. SERIOUSLY LUH, NO POINT TALKING, TH CONVERSATION GETS NO WHERE. THEY ONLY WANT THINGS IN THEIR WAY. THEY'LL NEVER KNOW WAT I'M GOING THRU. THEY DIDNT EVEN KNOW I HAD A BACK PROBLEM, HAD BEEN THRU TERAPY IN KK HOSPITAL, MEDICAL FEE CAME FROM MY POCKET. WAT PARENTS WERE THEM? THEY KEEP SAY THEY'RE NICE, DID THEY ACTUALLY DONE ANYTHING FOR ME? NO, NOTHING.
THEY LIVE IN TH PAST. THEY TOLD MY FT TAT CCA HAS NO POINT. STUDIES MORE IMPORTANT. WELL, GOOD NEWS FOR DOLLY ONG, YOU FOUND A FRIEND, MY DAD. HE SUCKS TOTALLY. HE'S TELLING TAT HE WANT ME QUIT BBALL SO TAT I CAN COME HOME AFTER SCHOOL DIRECTLY EVERYDAY. HE THINK HE BIG IS IT, COMPLAIN COMPLAIN CONPLAIN. NOW STRESS IS BUILING UP AND THEY WANT ME TO DO SPECIALLY WELL? NOT POSSIBLE. MY DAD TOLD ME TAT HE WANTS AT LEAST ONE CHILD OF HIS TO GO INTO UNIVERSITY. BOTH MY SISTERS DONT WANT, SO I HAD NO CHOICE TO GO. I DONT WANNA GO, YET I CANT DECIDE COZ I'M TH YOUNGEST. UNFAIR, EVERYTHING'S UNFAIR. IF MY SISTERS ARE HOME ALEADY, I CANT GO OUT. I CANT BE OUT LATER THAN THEM. WHY? I'M MUTURE ENOUGH TO WORK OUTSIDE DURING HOLIDAYS. MY SISTERS SPEND THEIRS AT HOME COLLECTING MONEY FROM UE. I'M INDEPENDENT, I'M DIFFERENT OKAY.
I HAVE NO FREEDOM NOW, STRESS IS ALL I GOT. THEY EXPECT ME TO DO WELL WHEN THEY DEPRIVE AND TAKE AWAY WHAT I LOVE. I'M NOT GOD, I NEED REST, I NEED LEISURE TIME. I HAVE INTEREST, I KNOW WAT I'M DOING. WHY CANT UE ALL JUST TRUST ME, LET ME EXPLAIN WAT I REALLY WANT? ITS MY LIFE, LET ME DECIDE.
FUCK MY DAMM LIFE, OH ITS NO LONGER MINE ANYMORE.
Anyway, was told by coach tat i'm suspended from cca. I'm kindda depressed coz of this, but i'll jiayou in my studies. Tat's th only way i can go back to th team. But hor, mrchoo say i wouldnt have to come for training til midyears are over, means i have 3 more months to wait. WALAO
Won th match on wednesday. Having another match this coming wednesday too. JIAYOU DEAREST TEAM, SORRY I CANT COME NOWADAYS! ):
Had camp on friday and saturday. I have no mood now to talk, i havent do any homework. I'm tired, real real real real real tired. I will go bang a car on th road when i get too desperate to escape one day. No joke.
Havent post sheila birthday's pics, another time ba.
Oh ya, happy belated birthday eddie, ryancheng, mchong!
Enjoy life while ue can, be happy always.
Love ya guys.
I'm tired, i havent do homework. I have no mood for school, just gonna pretend i'm fine. LIKE ALWAYS.
But its getting harder and harder.
Life's just too bittersweet, bai.
Yours faithfully, Hm.
♥