Wednesday, June 2, 2010

离开 难道真的是解脱?♥

BY2 - 不够成熟

我想我还是不够成熟
还达不到 你的要求
我真的没有想的太多
只是怀念 你走以後

离开 难道真的是解脱难道 真的要事过境迁了以後才懂


倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头 决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过 笑着和你挥挥手

我想我还是不够成熟
还达不到 你的要求
我真的没有想的太多
只是怀念 你走以後

离开 难道真的是解脱
难道 真的要事过境迁了以後才懂

倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头 决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过 笑着和你挥挥手

如果有一天 我们有缘再见
你会不会想起 说过的永远

倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头 决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过 笑着和你挥挥手

I dont know why i'm like this, everyone else can move on. Yet i cant. You know, i said true beauty exist in a woman who can pick herself up after facing difficulties, and move on. Okay, i'm not beautiful, i'm weak, i cannot handle my emotions, i cannot handle these processes of life. I lyk to runaway from things, i have no courage to face them, face reality. Its harder than you think. Noboody truely know what someone else has been through, so please dont encourage me with those words. Its emphasizing to me that i'm a weakling, once i fall down, i can never pick myself up.

You know, today i spent half th day thinking stuff through. I wanna move on, but you're just stuck, frozen, tattooed in my mind. Everywhere i go, each sight i see, its always ue. Us. Our memories. We have been through too much, been to too many places. I was walking to bishan, i think of us. I walked to amk, i think of us, koi, movie theatres, arcades, toilets, bus stops, too too many places. I still remember you giving me that jealous face, always saying, walaooo that person stare at your there. I love th way you cared for me.

I was sitting at th playground, listening to music, until night time. I started starring at th stars, i think of us. Music, it seriously softens me. I will break down totally. Listening to old songs, i cried. So hard so hard. Neyo's mad, that time we fought. JB's baby, we sang it together. Kbox, we have been there to sing, so so many times. Th countless times i've been to ur house, play, watch tv, slack. Your words, your voice, your face, your hair, your hug, your kisses, i missed them so much.

I bought dinner, then walked to my house bball court, sat down, listen to more music, crieeven d even more. Then, i saw your name on th ground. I wrote it that day when i fought with my dad, you always cheer me up. I was walking home, i saw th pathway, where ue ran around lyk mad, trying to catch a flower that's falling from th tall tree above. You caught it, i was so happy. Your smile, you were so cute.

I really cant move on. I'm really stupid, i'm dumb, i'm just too weak. I know i suck ttm, but what am i to do. I'm just lyk this, i'm really trying my best, it just hurts too bad. I just love you too deeply.