Hello i'm in a fucking pissed mood now. I feel like scolding fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck out loud nowwwwww, zzz argh argh argh!
First, coach commented on my status say he's disappointed at me for not going training tmr. But i'm coming early tmr morning to run up and down ish alone, skipping, doing over hundred layups, shooting and underbaskets myself. I know i shouldnt have skipped training, but i already promised berr and i wanna keep that promise. Plus i really wanna go out with her, catch up and stuff. So i decided to put in extra effort by coming in the morning, and telling him i'll make up for whatever i missed during training. What more what more?! Somemore i told him the truth, exact truth that i'm going out with my friend, to marina barrage to picnic and fly kite. ARGHHHH feeling damm pissed now. Why he only say me, make me feel damm fucking sad, but dont tell off the others? Sometimes he know that the others are just making excuses to skip training but he's okay with it. I dont go for one, only one training, and he say he's very disappointed in me. Say he thought i changed, say he cannot trust me anymore. ZZZZZZZZZZ ARGHHHH kill me please.
Second, my mum has moodswings. (Guess i got this from her) She scolded me for going out almost everyday though i'm doing homework. And sometimes i'm alone outside, not with friends or whatever, totally focussed on doing my studying. I'm not going out with friends to eat expensive meals, watch movies already. And if i do so, i'm using money from my piggybank. I remembered once when i asked her for money, she yelled, FOR WHAT?! And i said lunch and dinner, she gave me 5bucks. For 2 meals? Zzz and that day i had to skip my lunch. Zzz Yes i admit i've been spending alot this month but i told her i'll return her already. I'm skipping meals, eating like 1meal per day so that i can save up to return her. Yet she's still scolding me for spending money like free one. ZZZ i wan work, my parents also dont allow. So stop saying stuff like wan spend jiu zi ji earn, dont spend their money. I wan zi ji earn, they also dont allow wattttt. ZZZ
Third, i asked my mum for money cause i needa buy jerseys for next year's bdiv. Then she say, see spend money again. I said it was for basketball. My sister commented, ni ming ming zhi dao daddy dont like you play basketball. I said he's okay already. My mum say you dont inside next year's team jiu ke yi save money le what, only know how to spend, dk how save. I SCOLDED FUCK IN MY MIND. Seriously what's wrong with them! ARGHHHHHHH.
Okay i know i know, go private blog private blog. Cause whatever i blogged with be quoted against me. P blog is the only place that i can rant out everything and not get comments saying i'm fucking judgemental. Bb