Thank god.

Hi peepos, its been long since i updated. i was too lazy anyway

Ytd was TGIF with northeast at sentosa! :3 Awesome fellowshippppp to the max, check out my facebook for pictures. Or maybe i'll post them up someday. I'm having muscleaches everywhere now cause of the games we had ytd. Well, i woke up at 7 and went to meet deb and ber at 8plus at mac. Train to habourfront to meet the peeps then we train to sentosa. The ticket was only $3! I din know that :O Started everything officially at 12.

I was grouped with lianne claudialim claudia kurt gabriel connie ben and yuhan. WE ARE THE TOFU ARMY! Hahahah in the end we won, cause all sports people. Started with captain ball mini version, then wrestling then waterbombs then playing in water. Goshhhhh i love the sea! :D PUSHING PEOPLE AND GETTING PUSHED! Got to know more new church peeps, hehehehehehe :> Wash up, and went to eat at this hawkercentre beside vivo. Went home at 11plus sia! :O Thanks mum and dad for letting me stay out so late. Anyway, awesome good friday spent, awesome fellowship awesome church awesome God. TFIG(Y)

I guess i'm gonna rot at home today cause i'm just too sore to move about. Tmr's easter service, signature special programmmmme. I'M SO EXCITEDDDDDDDD!! :*

Tata lovers, i'll blog again soon.

You know sometimes when you just don't feel like talking. You may seem like an outcast, but you're just feeling down and don't feel like talking at all. Or maybe you just don't belong...

Love hurts whether its right or wrong.

Hi aliens i'm rather busy with basketball and studies so my blogging time will decrease. Awwww dont cry tehehz

Anyway, life has been normal i guess. Coach got me outta training and bball matches cause of my miserable back. So yeah, cried that day when coach told me to stop trainings and watever. So yeah, saddening since i'm graduating this year. Hais

But i'm alright now. Actually i'm excited for service tmr!<3 I'm always excited to go church hehez. Okay i'll blog later cause i'm practically stoning in front of my lappy, wondering what to do. And my feel for blogging has flown away, wooosh. Okay i need some food now, i want icemilo.

Did you forget all the plans you made with me? Cause baby i didnt.

Its nights like these which got me thinking why i did all these in the past, and how much i regretted certain things that made my present. Well, sometimes i really wonder. Why, what if, will it be better? I have no clue.

I like the past, before everything collapsed during end of may. I hate it, i hated everything, i hated myself then. I'm not now.

But its nights like these that will get me back to thinking about those unpleasant thoughts, yet recapping my happy moments. Hmmmm, its nights like these that i miss you even more than usual. Nights like these that remind me of how much i love you still.

Dont you hate it when you see something you shouldnt have, and literally hear your heart crumble into a million pieces? That just happened, and i really cant stay strong for long. Swollen teary eyes on these nights again.

I wonder what you're doing, what you're thinking now? Well, not me for sure.

Make me assuredly yours.

Hi little bears. I feel like a mama bear, those big ones cause i'm really hungry and i wanna munch on some food. argh

Anyway, last saturday's service was awesome. But wednesday's one was the best outta the best! So wednesday, after training i practically chiong to take a bath and meet the peeps. Well, i wasnt the last the reach ahaha! Train to dhobby to meet dylan and co, before boarding the bus to east coast. Although it rained, but we prayed and the sun came back to life :) Sand castle building was fun, cause it was super retarded, plus there are unglam shots which luckily i'm not tagged in. HAH! The other group's sandcastles were mad beautiful! Oh, and i saw yile and caught up with her throughout the entire day! <3

The evening service was cool, i mean being able to speak in tongue was amazing. Hmmm dk how to describe it. The night concert was the best best best best! SHIOK MAN. Jumping around and singing like wild dinosaurs, the atmosphere was superb! Went to eat touhua with huiling, huiming, berlin and debbie. Oh and gabriel and dk who dk who, ahahaha sorry i'm still in the process of making new friends. Well, we played some card games, crazy night :) Cabbed home past midnight! Oh goshhhy, sorry mum!

Saturday's service was different, met debbie and ben for mac breakfast. Oh ya, cassandra came toooooooo! :3 Oh ya, i wasted alot of money that day. Cause i cab, and ate mac and stuff liddat. So after service, i got no money to get home. Luckily javien told me to cab to her place there and she help me pay. WOW SO NICE SIA! (Shock shock) hahahaha, thanks la! Ate dinner at hougang mall with ber and jav. Been sucha long time since i went there, kinda miss it. Hmmmm

Met up with bballers on sunday at vivo! Hahahahahaha, went to meet yuxuan and ber for shepherd teaching, which was rather interesting! Hahahahaha new knowledge new knowledge. Thanks, although she's not my official shepherd yet, i'm a lost sheep now. Hohoho :3 Ate and studied a little, before heading to glacious to meet jav and eat my favvvvvv yogurtttttt (<3)

Met xiaoting at around 2plus then mrt to meet juniors and coach at habourfront. Hahahah, shop around and juniors bought new bball shoes! :D They went off with coach while me xiaoting and jav went around vivo. Hahahaha gongcha was awesome, love the milktea! :D Actually i love all milkteas, yummmmmmmmmmmy~ Went to nex to meet ber for dinner, ate kfc laaaaaaaaaa omgomgomg. Did some shopping at popular, oh ya i bought a new cute water bottle. Got robots, which are oh so adorable hehe.

Okay, i should be starting on homework. Anyway, school started out pretty fine. I'm feeling a little sick, okay i need to lie down, update again real soon. Bye lovelies

That should be me, making you laugh.

I dont know why i'm here, i got that feel to blog but i have no topic to talk about. Hmmmm weird start of the day for me. Anyway, i should be bathing and on my way to dhobby by now if not i'll be late. OMG

I'm pretty hyped up about praise and worship later, hope my blisters wouldnt stop me from jumping up and down and up and down. Hehehehehehehe, i'm a hungry broken bird now. :( $$$$$ come to me!

Oh so paper thin.

I feel worthless, but i want to be with you.
I dont know why but i think we're meant to be,
do you feel the same?

Or maybe its better for you if i'm not that special one.
But i want to be. with. you.

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag?

Just leave me alone to die. Quoted by lilo.

No i cant fall asleep. I dont get why i need to put so much effort and bother so much. Then when you tell others, i become the bad guy, yet again. I want to complain too, but i guess complaining to others isnt much of a great help to me. Esp when its about you. Why am i caring so much about? Maybe cause its about the team, which i might not be a part of anymore, if i told the truth. Well, the truth hurts sometimes, literally it really does hurt a lot. Why do i get upset over just a little tiny matter? I guess its cause i'll keep thinking about it, and link to much more troubles. Hate it hate it hate it, i'm so weak so weak so weak.

K i'm no longer mad at you, i'm mad at myself. Seriously la, bang wall and die why am i so weak so weak so weak so weak why does it hurt so much so much. :(

I'm complaining about my life, when others out there in japan are suffering more than me. What a person i am, i hate myself. Why am i so weak so weak so weak so weak, i dont feel human anymore. Paralysed maybe, so weak so weak so weak.

Money cant buy us happiness.

Hello its beeen weeks since i posted right?

Well, i practically forgotten what happened, so i'm not gonna update about them fully. Sorry readers!

Anyway, first thing first. I joined yhope neb3, my first lg session was fun. Lovely cute people in the same lg as me, so its always a funny memory! <3 Oh, i'm pretty excited for my journey with God starting from now, cause i know i'll be blessed by Him, and hopefully i'll be a better person yea?

And also, march holidays has begun! But before that, we got back our CA1 results which i felt was pretty horrible. I failed my amaths, got VR for humanities, and only one A. Got 30plus/44 in class, and around 160plus in level. Hais deproved so much, feeeling so sad. But i got to keep that negative thinking aside and buck up after march holiday! You know i have high expectations of myself, the school expects a L1R5 of 6 for me you know! Everything A1, except chemistry A2 and higher chinese B3. Well, many says its possible. Okay, i'm gonna work towards that goal! JIAYOU :D

Trainings are getting tougher cause nationals are starting soon. I'm not sure what i should do, but oh well, i guess i'm gonna chiong for nationals then settle down rest, and study ba. Hopefully, i really want zhonghua to get into the next round. I want zhonghua to get into at least top8 in nationals! I really want that before i graduate, although its not up to me to decide our fate. But i'll just pray.

Anyway, i'm still unsure who's my shepherd, yuxuan/debbie/shontelle(if that's how i spell her name). But whoever it is, 请多多指教! <3 Hahahahahaha. Got to know a few church people, well its always great to make new friends right? Hahah got people say i v pretty, hehehehehe! And fiona said i'm photogenic hehehehe. Compliments are always so heart warming. I'm not gonna say people are pretty, i've decided to tell others that they have a beautiful soul instead. Seems meaningful huh? Awwww

First training yesterday and it practically killed me. Tired like some pig, muscleaches everywhere la! :( But i'll be fine after a couple days of rest. I'm fatfatfat already cause i ate 2 big bowls of glacious with debbie yesterday, with oreo toppings! Oh gosh :( Oh ya, i needa juggle much more stuff properly cause i have more things to do. I mean like, sometimes i'll be staying late with church peepos for basketball, so i needa prioritize my time well. I cant let having fun affect my studies! OLEVELS THIS YEAR LEH. Hmmmm

I spent the whole of today resting and watching tv, and feeling like a hungry bear cause my house has no yummy food :( There's training tmr too, and then some church stuff at the beach! OH GOSH IM EXCITED TO THE MAXXXXXXXXXXXXX! :> And i'll be able to see pohyile after like 3 years? Omgomgomg. Thank God for reuniting us. And maybe i'll see iris too! I'm so hyped up for this! EXCITED EXCITED HEHEHEH.

Okay, i needa go eat my dinner soon or else i'll munch on my sofa. Oppps, heheheh. Oh ya, more photos on facebook and twitter, i'm much more active over there. But i will try to update more often here k peepos! Well, you know i'll still love you, dear bloggy. Xoxoxo

But secretly she wanted him as well.

Hello peepoooo, I'm posting using my new iphone, for the first time. It's kinda time consuming to blog by typing on the iphone cause it's kinda slow. :( sooooo it's gonna be a very short update.

Well, as you can see, I got a new iphone and i have a super awesome blue cover! <3 hahahahahahahaha. Thanks daddy! So now my contacts are little and I need more numbers people! Please please please tell me soon k! Oh ya, my number changed so do check my fb for it. :)

Hmmmm, okay im feeling tired from today's training already, though we didn't do much. I got school early tmr and then service in the afternoon. I didn't actually know when I raised my hand, it means I have accepted god and joined their church. Okay, actually I have already accepted christ when I was in city harvest children, but oh well, yhope is fun too! Gotta mingle around with the lifegroup and get to know them better. Alright it's getting late, and gosh I'm feelin hungry again. Sassafras, well gnight lovelies.

When i think about summer all the beautiful times.

Hello peepo its monday morning now and i'm having monday blues already, when school havent even started. :(

So what happened yesterday? Well, i woke up in the morning feeeeling superduper hungry, so i went to cook some yummy noodles. I love mushrooooooms! <3 Then went to meet weekiat, darrel and ervin at serangoon interchange before 109ing to my place. Gambling gambling gambling. I won the most heheheheheheh, i guess when i gave them drinks and tibits to snack on, i'll get something in return. What goes around comes around. But they really eat alot! 2 big 1.5l bottles of 7up, 2 big packs of chips, 2 big packs of wangwang, and 5 cans of wangwang milk. Gosh

Since my parents are going out to eat, i went out with ervin and weekiat to serangoon for dinner before going home, while they headed to lan. Saw debbie and took cab with her, and she paid thanks ah hahahahahah! But the unlucky part was the cab turned to my house the same time my dad's car turned in, so its a little awkward, and my dad kept asking why must i take cab back. But oh well, nothing major happened. Oh ya, my dad told me if i went out for dinner with them, i'll get a new iphone4 cause he saw how my phone is so dead now. Crapppppp, i'm feeling so sian but its okay! I shall beg him another day then.

Okay, school's gonna start so i better go bath and hop to school. Gosh, schoooool. The monday blues are coming back, when i thought i'm feeling a little better after blogging. Gosh gosh gosh, there's training later too! Back ankle shoulder, take care!

I'll go back in time and change it but i cant.

There's a world out there that we should see.

Hello peeeeepo, sorry i just love the black and white effects. :) ahaha

Shall post the normal pics some other day, there are more than 70? Omg. Head to fb to check them out yeah?

Anyway, today was a fufilling day. Got up early for english lessons, and i've learnt some meaningful useful skills for olevels! Pei dawwwwwn then buy mac breakfast for ber, then went to her place. We were kinda late so we rushed rushed rushed, yhope is kinda fun, the singing jumping raising up hands high until v suan, the same as cityharvest. But the second half of service was different. Maybe because i joined cityharvest when i'm pri4 with jolene and her sist, and it was a children church. So we kept playing games and singing songs, but equally fun. :) I went for cityharvest youth service only for 3 months before i sat for psle and then i didnt go back anymore, sadddddddd. But anyway, yhope was fun. Actually reflected some stuff and thought of some stuff, hmmmm shall go for service again someday.

After church, me and ber headed to cathay to meet jav. Bought tickets for blackswan, and though its a m18 movie, we still got in! HEHEH :D The movie was alright, rather scaryyyyyyyyyy. And a teenyweeny sick, its m18 whatcha expect? Hahaha. They went for another movie, another m18 sicko movie while i went back home to eat dinner with my mum and dad. Both my sisters are at work so i guess i'll pei them ba? I needa learn to appreciate the people around me more, love them move, no biasness whatsoever. :)

So, tmr a few peeepos are coming to my place for a gambling session. Hmmm, maybe i'll do some homework in the morning, i'm kinda tired tonight. Just got the spam songs feeeel yeah, i love listening to emo songs. idk why

Oh ya, my dad says he might get an iphone 4 for me this/next month cause iphone5 is taking too much time, and the phone i'm using now is kinda spoilt. Sooooo lets see ba!

Hahahahahahah i shall go listen to my emo songs, and emo. LOOOOL, no lah i'm not in that sad mood today. Hmmmm, but my back still hurts though. And ankle, and shoulder. Omgoshhhhh.

谁还在乎一起傻傻说过的那些话？

LOL @our faces that day hahaha.

Yeah apparently its 1.50am now cause i stared at this page for almost half an hour and kept thinking about whether or not i'll post tonight. In the end i did.

So today? I mean yesterday. Err whatever, 24 feb 2011 thursday. Lessons were usual, since i didnt learn my test or do any homework, i did them during lessons. Hactic to the max! I lost quite a number of workbooks from last year. :( Should i buy new ones? Ireallydk. Maybe. I went for recess cause i was feeeeeeling super(x10000) hungry, didnt see you. :( SAD FACE.

Immediately after school ended, i hopped over to 3e4 to meet audrey, then mrs ngiam who fetched us to the doctor's. Thankssss <3 She paid for us too, sucha nice teacher right. I'm norminating her for the dk what teachers award thingy. :) Anyway, she left us to eat our lunch, so me and audrey headed to maccccky. I ate mac spicy which is madddddd fattening, somemore i'm not training tmr. Ohmygoshhhhness.

So we talked, gossiped and stuff. But its hard cause we're from two different levels, and sometimes we dk who we're talking about so yeah. We looooooook super retarded cause both of us are baika now, and somemore same side, our right ankle. OMG EMBARASSING! hahahaha. Slacked awhile and walked to mrt with her. Thanks for carrying my baggy ah, didnt know you so sweet! <3 Love ya!

I went home pretty early and tooook a nice long afternoon nap until 10pm. O: Woke up, ate my dinner and realised i didnt bring any homework home, so i'm gonna be dead tmr. Shoot me now peepos! :( Oh shit, i havent ask my dad about this sunday's party! SHIT, he's asleep already. Okay i got to ask tmr, must must must!

Anyway, i'm not attending pe tmr, saddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd. And i got no time to complete jianglaoshi's homework cause its in school, and the period is before recess. Gosh! And mr lee's geog wb exercise is lost, so how am i suppose to do it? Actually both are already late, i'm the only one who havent hand in. Oppps

Okay, i cant fall asleep now, and there's no hw i bought home to do. So what am i doing now? Listening to music, and perhaps think about some stuff. Clear my mind, its pretty messed up in there. Haisssssssssss wo xiang ni he wo, wo xiang wo men ah.

是不是该放手了？

Hello, beeen updating pretty often ever since common tests are over!

There wasnt much happening during lessons today. I'm missing on lots of lessons cause of basketball, but i'm lazy to work the extra mile to catch up. Feeeeling ever so restless and lifeless. Gosh :(

Won today's match but i played badly. Got mrchoo shouting at me, i mean screaming at me across the court and stuff like that. Almost teared on court but thanks girls who cheered me on and encouraged me. :) But i gotta admit, i've not been myself this few matches. Perhaps its my own fear of getting injured, or is it because my backache is restricting me? Idk. But yeah i sprained my ankle, it hurts alot but no worries, this teenyweeny pain is manageable.

Oh ya, my parents are back from overseas. I know i'm a bad person, but i feeeeel so siannnnnnn luh. Freedom goneeeee :( HAISSSSS. Was supposed to have a gambling party at my house this sunday, hope it wont be cancelled. And hope i can persuade my dad to go out with his friends that day. Pretttty please! :( Feel damm restricted now, needa hurry home and show him i'm a good girl, before i tell you about the party on sunday.

Okay, my ankle hurts alot, and i dont feel like heading to school tmr. I dont wanna do my homework, i just wanna lie down and rest. Feeeeling so tired, but what am i tired of? Life? Haisssss