Someone just wounded my heart.

Hello my aircon has been turned on since friday night. YAY OMG
My favourite colour red, it reminds me of you.

I couldnt get into school today, so i didnt manage to grab my books. So i didnt study today. DIE :( But i did 1 history essay and 1 sourcebase though, at least a little sense of accomplishment, heh heh. Thanks eddie for your helpppp too :) Oh gosh, i still owe mr chong my two biology journals, mr ang my amaths eoy practice paper, ms teo my 2008 amaths eoy paper and my amkss emaths paper. I'll do them when i'm doing my revision on that subject, i hope. Spent the afternoon today sleeping, and waking up for tv, eat, and falling asleep again. Zhuu :o I'm getting tired of mooncakes, had like 4 today? I wanna puke already, zzz. I'm constantly hungry this few months, shitz. I swear i'm gonna eat bens and jerry, and icecube, and chompchompz after eoy exams. JIAYOU! Study plan finally made, the final version. No changes please please please. :)

I should stop stalking your facebook, and seeing things that make me cry. Yes i can do it, yes i can do it. Like real, tan huiming you cant resist one. Zzz !@#$%^&*

I need help with chemistry, which i always fail. But yet, my eoy expectation for this subject is a C5. I hope i hope i hope.

I realised i still have one more history essay to do. I bet i'll finish it at 2am or something, because i'm starting to daydream whenever i write. Died meat, i'm feeling sleepy and hungry. FAT, i bet i'll have stomach ache tonight because i just drink 2 cups of milk.

就让我一个人去痛到受不了，想到快疯掉，死不了就还好

Yeah bang me car, bang me. Why aint you moving?
Retard.

Hello people, its gonna be a short post because i have to head back to school to take my books home. Yes, i have nothing at home now to study. Wasted my time yesterday :( So i hope the school is open. Pretty pretty please.

Countdown to last day of eoy exam: 19days
I cant wait, but i'm scared though.

I think my blog songs are not working, walaooooz. I fell in love with some songs recently. Nice to listen, but not when i'm studying. Kinda sad, mood's like a roller coaster ride, up and down up and down. Dreamt of you last night zzz. :(

"I find it hard to come to terms with the fact that life goes on. Tragedy happens, people come and go. But does life really proceed? The world doesnt stop spinning, so i guess so. But there is something so insensitive about the idea to me. The world should stop spinning for a bit, for those who cant keep up and need some time to rest in calm serenity. " Quoted.

Memories are suppose to fade, what's wrong with my heart.

Hello, photos from yesterday. More on facebook :) Its was fun, but some part of my heart was missing.

Okay i was suppose to study today. But i realised i never bring my books home, even those homework. So i'm heading to school tmr to get them home and start revision. Today is another rest day i guess. I feel tired tired tired, but i have to study. I believe my eoy holidays would depend on my results, so i got to jiayou. I dont wan all words no actions please, tan huiming.

Dead in the heart.

I know where you need to be, even though its not here with me.

Hello didnt blog last night, tired.

Yesterday was usual, nothing special. Left for lunch earlier than the rest of the class, so the canteen was super empty. Ate and went to ngee ann poly in school bus. Reached and went to lecture hall 26 :D The forensic science thing was super cool! LIKE CSI ONE. Got detective come and give a presentation too, taught us some investigation stuff, detect thumbprints and stuff. He even showed past cases, very interesting. :) Feel so motivated to study biomicrology in poly, hehe.

Took a bus w my classmates to somewhere near bishan. Then walked down the road to merrymount mrt station. We walked there before, memories oh memories. OMG :( Anyway, headed to bishan with chaihao and ryan for koi. Then waited for pamelin and seewan to come. Walked and shopped awhile before heading home. Reached home at 9plus? Tired and slept after bathing. No homework done, omg

Today? Usual lessons. I flunk my chemistry, sad sad sad! Lunch with dawn opposite school in the afternoon! :D Talked, crapped and laughed like mad women. Walked to interchange and bused home. Bathed and headed back to school at 5 to meet dawn and went to mac for icecream before going school for lantern fest. I think the concert was okay? No comments. Had loads of fun playing lanterns and hitting ppl's lanterns. I wanna play candles, like last year. Okay nvm. Stop thinking huiming you idiot, that status isnt talking about you. Stop lying to yourself. I have to get it straight in my mind. Actually wanted to go out to play w classmates at night, but lingen and berling pull me, so i went with them. :) Bishan for koi, again. Then went to arcade to play a while. Reached home at 10.30, omg. I'm tired now, homework and studying tmr. I hope :>

I got myself a private tutor, hehe. I have to jiayou on my studies liao!

Okay, tired tired tired. Cramps

You told me i was pretty when i look like a mess.

Hello people, i think i'm a vitasoy addict. I drank 5 vitasoy today :o OMG, i vomited once. I'm still drinking milk now, i just love that cow feel. Hoho. Shitz mosquito bite. x4

Okay, early in the morning. Ms tan told me that i might bounce back to reserve list for melbourne trip, walaoooooo. Because they needed another boy, not a girl. Zzz i pay already leh :( But then, ms ong said she'll help me. Since there's odd number of girls and boys, i'm left to bunk with zufar. O: Which they dont allow, obviously. So i might have to bunk w a teacher, wtf. But ms ong is still helping me, so i shall have my fingers crossed. :) School as usual, pe was fun! I hate that i'm a girl because every month i'll suffer, yes today is the first day and my cramps are killing me.

Anyway, there's no ssp today. SO I WENT ON A DATE WITH AUDREY TAY! TWO OF US ONLY LEH :D Haha, we met immediately after school and went to finish our card, then collect some stuff from sheena before heading off. Trained to tampines mall, went starbucks then ate at basement. Expensive you know! :( Then went breadtalk, walk walk and decided to go woodlands. Long long bus ride, talk talk talked. :) We were kinda tired, plus it rained so audrey fell asleep on the bus for a few minutes, and i kept laughing because her head keep falling. Idk how describe. Went to library to sit down, BUT MY DAD COME RUIN EVERYTHING ZZZ. I keep tell audrey to act femine and wear her skirt. Because she looked like a guy, with her jacket and stuff. O: But i still got her scolded by my dad. He damm unreasonable! D: SORRY AUDREYYYYYYYYY. But had a great day with her, talked some stuff. hehe

My phone is confiscated, walao. I'm not in a good mood to study, so shall give it a miss tonight. I'm going ngee an poly tmr for bio lectureeeee! :) EXCITED. I may not blog so often already, lazy. OMG i owe mr chong bio journal, but i dont feel like doing. HOW :(

A whole chunk backspaced, off to private blog.

Steady hands dont fail me now.

Hello, today's chemistry test was okay? But i did not do well, i hope i wouldnt fail. :( Haha dentist say my teeth v good, and i got wisdom tooth, which usually grows after 18years old. HEHE I AM MATURE. SS ssp after school was horrible. I wanted to go toilet but ms tan scolded me, she is a pure bitch serious. Stoned in the auditorium until 3plus, then headed back to class. Went to find bballers to study from 4 to 6 in NE corner. Not as productive as studying alone, but it was funn! :) Walked to interchange w dawn and enzio, ahemmmmmmmm~ MUMMY DADDY <3 crapped all the way, laughing like a mad women. Heh

Studying plan from 10-11.30 tonight, jiayou.

I LOVE YOU, I REALLY DO. I am desperate for a hug from you.

I'll leave to let you live.

Hello i'm officially sick. Just took my temperature and its a shocking 38.1 >: Even though i wore my jacket to school and slept earlier than usual, i still caught the flu bug. Anyway, today our class was in a mess early in the morning because our seats were rearranged again. I guess its much roomy now, and i love it. My seat v windy, hehe. Today's biology lesson was interesting, learnt about skin diseases and cancer stuff stuff. I LOVE ALL THESE STUFF, IDK WHY. I said i wanted to be a csi when i grow up. A bit weird huh? hoho. Had a v useful chem ssp after school, then headed to library to study. Thanks xiaoting for your ipod! :D But i couldnt study much, my mind ran wild. Decided to go NE corner to study, couldnt concentrate. So i went home at about 5plus? Reached home and went for a swim. I guess that's how my fever shoot up. Sick plus studying equals to pre exam stress and pimples outbreak. SAD! :(

Okay, its gonna be 8am soon, i'm heading out for dinner! Back at 10plus i hope, i got 3 homework today. And there's chem test tmr, i wanna study.

Oh ya, happy birthday julia and coach! :D LOVE YA GUYS.

I feel like shooting my heart numb. I need you baby

I'm not perfect but i keep trying.

Hello 2nd post of the day, like yesterday. I'm tired, bored, but i have no motivation to study yet. But i cant let my parents, coach and myself down. I feel like shitz.

Today met berlin at amk to print photos. I was very very late, so i treated her food and icecream. HERSEY DARK CHOCOLATE FLAVOUR! Omgggggggod. Trained to sengkang to meet xiaoting and germaine. Went to kfc to make coach's card, then javien came a while later to help. Me and xiaoting keep crapping in popular. Hehe, i ate another icecream again. Yummeh :D We sort of finished th card, i guess its quite pretty. The photos are awesome <: Left the place at 7, then bused back home w javien. Fun day, hehe. Studying w xiaoting and jav tmr after school. I am going to melbourne 100% liao, paid the cheque already. Hoho happy, excited! I am excited for eoy, many many activities planned. There's b division 2011 bball mini competition, kinda looking forward, idk why.

Your fav colour, blue. Whenever i see checkered blue, i'll think of you. I miss you like hell now. Songs bring my emotions down completely. Singing to songs about you, or songs we use to sing together. I just miss you and our memories. Idk why after so long so long, i'm still not over you. I'll always have this heart ache in my chest, sour sour one. Pain, hurting. But there's nothing i can do. Nothing nothing nothing nothing nothing nothing, idk what i want actually. Get back together? I want, but i know its impossible. Friends? Are we ready? I'm not sure too. But i know i cant live life happy without you in my life. I really miss you a lot a lot a lot. We got million of memories, i wanna hug you, i wanna kiss you. I'm not attention seeking or whatever, but sometimes i'll cry in class while listening to songs. I got to act happy, because people see me as this happy go lucky, cheerful little girl, who is retard and crazy, and loud and naughty.

Shitz, down down down. Aches, my heart cannot take it.

Left a small town, never turn back.

Hello. This picture is so cute, i simply love spongebob and patrick. Hoho so adorable :)

Okay, i did one out of my five weekend homework yesterday. And later i'm going out to find xiaoting they all in the afternoon. I guess i only left my night time to complete my assignments. Studying plan starts after mid autumm celebration in school, jiayouuuuuuuuuuuuu! I'm having serious cramps now, but i cant resist not drinking milk. Its so yummy, i'm craving for koi nowzzz. I need to save money soon, for eoy sales. I bet i'll go town with berlin, bballers and class v v often after exams. Excited! :) But i got to wait for one more month. Endure endure endure. I hope i can make time for my proposal for eoy school carnival. Support me tyvm :)

I hope coach's card will turn out fine. I spent 2 hours plus plus hunting for photos. And at 4am, i went to print it. BANG, NO BLACK INK. So all the black colours got replaced w combination of other colours. And seriously, the quality sucked big time. But we're in a rush, so we cant do much about it liao. SADDD

Okay off to bathe, god bless my day. P.s/: i miss cityharvest church, and ms lau's church. But i no longer go there, the last time i went was primary 5? OMG I AM OLD.

My love's like a papercut, it cuts so deep.

Hello second post of the day, because i'm just so bored. Shall start on my homework soon, before i fall asleep. I'm kinda tired, and cramps are starting to show. Oh gosh :( Heading out to meet bballers to make coach's birthday card tmr afternoon, hope everything goes smoothly and fun. Heh heh :>

I'm listening to old songs the whole day today. Songs like 我想要说, 是你决定我的伤心, Down and Baby really reminds me of you. I miss going kbox with you. I miss hugging and kissing in kbox, and getting totally shocked when the person comes in the door. Your voice is so sweet, i love the way you sing so whole-heartedly to song lyrics. You keep say i got china accent, i dont okay! But i guess, that's all over already. Hais

Younger now than we were before, dont let me go.

Hello i caught the flu bug that's going around. And now i'm burning up soon, oh gosh :( Anyway, i feel like sleeping the whole afternoon and finishing my weekend homework at night. I'm going out the whole day on sunday, i hope.

Quote of the day: "Life is like flying kites, sometimes you have to pull tight, sometimes you have to let go. If everything goes smoothly, your kite will fly high and mightly."

God will bless you now, because i cant do my part to love you anymore.

I need to escape.

Hello people, tmr is another weekend, and i'm gonna be doing nothing today. Just internet, tv and rest rest rest. I feel kinda sick now, i feel a fever coming. And the drink-too-much-milk-will-vomit feeling is back. Drank one vitasoy in the morning, and another during recess. Went to the toilet twice after recess to vomit, disgusting man. >: And all i can say is that the world is a small small place. Hais

Okay, today was another normal school day. Heard something horrible during CE, the world can be such a cruel place huh. ): Anyway, went opposite to eat lunch with e2 peeps. :o Then went to training with xiaoting and germaine. Today's training was a total slack day! Coach kept asking me to decide on what to do next, hehe i'm a student coach, hoho. Fun day! And i realised i can work pretty well with vivian, lol :o Had dinner with coach and bballers opp school before heading home in coach's car. I felt like a fatty, coach kept helping me take food. Its free too, yay! Saved money :) NOTE TO SELF: I HAVE TO WISH COACH HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINCERELY ON MONDAY. Okay, off to bathe and stone away. I wanna talk to god tonight. I will study tmr, i swear.

Quote of the day, "Its never too late to be who you might have been. Even when the hopes are down, just move along."

Baby, i can recognise your smell. Its kinda disturbing but yet, so sweet. I miss you, when did we become like this? I want us to be back to how we use to be, but you're always not ready. Time. I hate time, its too short and limited in some cases, and too long in others.

You sang me spanish lullaby, the sweetest sadness in your eyes.

Hello.
My dad is back in singapore. Zzz, hate it to the max! First, i cannot stay back long in school to study. Second, i cannot eat dinner after cca, because he likes to keep me at home. My body is here, but my heart will never be with this family. Aiya, nvm you guys also dont understand. Third, he keep ask this ask that, keep doubting me. Now my melborne trip also got problem liao laaaaaaa. >: I know i'm not suppose to say it because hate is a huge word. But i really HATE my father, to the point where i can hope he dies and my mum can remarry. I know its a heartless thing to wish for, but yaaaa i just got some stuff bubbled up within me. P.S: I HATE MISS TAN GIM HUA TOO. Not even mrs ngiam and ms ong wanna bunk with her for the melborne trip.

Today was an ordinary school day. Boring lessons, i kept stoning in classes recently. OMG o: Skipped recess to stone in the classroom and listen songs. Even though i told myself i wanted to study and finish my homework. Emaths ssp after school in 3e1 classroom, then headed to NE corner to study w xiaoting and mrs ngiam. Jav, sheila and tiffany they all came a while too. Dad called, and i had to leaveeeeeeeeee. That's my day today. Tonight might be a do-nothing-night as well. Sighs. I might complete my chinese homework and head to bball court to play. Well, actually i hardly play there, i just love the night scenary there. There's night lights, and since its beside the CTE, i can always stare at cars zooming past. I like to go there and clear my mind. Hopefully my dad wouldnt scold me for going down.

People who love to write fml, should really go bang wall and die. People are losing their precious lives in earthquakes, terrible accidents and diseases, yet we as healthy people keep complaining. I know i used to be one of those people, but i'll try to change. I've understand some stuff this year. Dont be shocked, but ryan can really make a speech about life.

Baby, i cant stop staring at you. You're just so attractive and cute. Your every action, even the littlest ones, triggers my heart to beat faster. You're no longer mine, but you were the best thing that's ever been mine. Enjoy your new lives, with your new friends. You seem happier, after i'm gone.

Okay, off to bathe and stone my night away. Bb

So long my luckless romance.

Hello, i'm not feeling well now.
Today was a horrible day, a horrible morning especially. I hate my form teacher, like seriously. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! ~!@#$%^&* Anyway, i might be going for melborne trip, austrialliaaaaaa <: 90% confirm already, but i've got the form, i just have to ask my dad to sign and give me the cheque. I still dk how much is the trip omg. My dad's coming back tmr, I AM NOT HAPPY. :(

After school, was unluckily chosen to attend ssp. Had a mini quiz which gave me major headache. Done, went to find xiaoting to head to training. Bball wasnt as much fun as expected today. Did not do well, felt sleepy and i really got to buck up soon. I FEEL FAT. Heard and saw some stuff, feel kinda down, okay nvm.

Talked to coach as he seemed down today too. His birthday coming up soon, hehe. I felt that i've been pretty close with coach recently. :) HAPPY. I understood what coach was so upset about, today. Attitude means a lot to him. Okay, anyway waited with shiying for our parents, for 40mins at the school bus stop. I felt like an idiot, lol.

I'm not in a cheerful mood now, have been listening to sad songs since dinner. Songs like almost lover. I need to get my heart back to studying like yesterday, but i think today is gonna be a do-nothing-night. I'm very tired now, idk why. But i dont feel like sleeping yet, i havent bathe yet oh gosh. SMELLYZ.

Shadows of regret, i've got millions. Words i shouldnt have said, stuff i shouldnt have done. I know them, you were a great lover. Being with you definitely isnt one of my regrets.

You think i'm moving, but i'm going nowhere.

Helloooo. BERLIN, SHE VERY CUTE RIGHT! Hehe, screammmmmm~ Photos taken from her blog, copyrighted okay. OMG SO CUTE o:

Anyway, today was a boring day. School as usual, did homework after school, then went to study with javien and xiaotinggggg. :D Mrs ngiam rockkkkkkkkkkkk, i love her <3 haha. Pei xiaoting to mrt at 5plus, then went back to school to meet my mum. Just reached home from dinner, gonna bathe and go fetch my sister. There's amaths test tmr, i think i need to study. And i've got a lot of homework today, idk why. Feel so tired now, but i'll try to stay awake. Bball tmr, woooot. <:

No dedication for you baby, but you're still the cutest.

And we hoped for the best, and let go off the rest.

Hello people, today was the first school day of term 4. I guess it was pretty alright? I didnt feel sleepy and i could pay attention in class, good start :) And i could get away with not completing assignments without getting scolded, awesomeee! Had chemistry ssp before going for cca. I LOST BOTH MY BBALL SHOES, OH GOD. >: But i think i had fun furing training today, even though i deproved a lot a lot a lot. Matches were tiring, but real fun. Missed training oh soo soo much o: After that, coach talked to me for super long, about certain stuff. Hmmmm, made me think twice about some stuff. And thinking deeper about how things changed. Okay anyway, pei coach eat dinner opposite school while i wait for my mum. More talking and talking, hehe got some idea on what to do for his birthday already :) YAY. Went dinner with my mum, bathed, facebook, twitter, and here i am now. Got to go do homework soon! Okay, i'm gonna try focus my energy on mugging, jiayou.

Hey you, yes you, you are so cute. And i'll always love you from afar.

All i needed was a call.

I'm kinda tired for no reason, and i'm suppose to be finishing up on my homework. But my mind seems to be preoccupied with pointless things that i kept thinking over and over again. Yeah, i'm losing focus in studying. But talking to ryan is somewhat making me reflect more about life, okay people may think its crap but there's just something more than what i'm living now. Okay nvm, idk what i'm talking about.

I was revising a teeny weeny bit of my chinese just now, and i caught my calender sitting by the lonely edge of my table. I looked through and booooom, i realised how time flies, and how little time i have left to prepare for EOY. And before i know it, its next year already, and then, the big O LEVEL. I feel that i'm suppose to be mugging seriously now to not disappoint many people. Okay set, i'm gonna make plans before the clock strikes twelve, the beginning of a new term.

Week 1: Get back in shape with bballers, and prepare for coach's birthday.
Week 2: Finish up all overdued assignments.
Week 3: Start my revision, and i mean serious mugging everyday after school. And advance papers.
Week 4: MORE REVISION.
Week 5: Main papers.

Okay, i just realised how i cannot concentrate when it comes to studying, but i can do other stuff like blogging and facebook, even if i'm tired. Its just a mindset i guess.

And, i gave up, really really giving up already. I'm not gonna do anything to regain our friendship, since you hate me now i guess. I'm starting to get on your nerves huh? Annoying right? And the more i do, the more you'll hate me. So i should listen to ber and seal off all contact with you. But your words stings badly.

"I mean, what is wrong with you"
"I dont wanna see you"

But we got some misunderstandings, really, but you wouldnt hear me out anymore. Nvm, i would just have one more stranger in my life, not even a hi from me anymore. Other than when we coincidently play ball together, but its just for 3 more days, then its exam. So i hope i wouldnt get in your way. Her birthday is coming, and i know you will do something magical for her, because you're sweet and thoughtful. I know you bought her a gift, and it just so happens to be the same thing you bought for me, just that mine's a H. Did you do that on purpose, for me to see? For me to give up, for me to forget you? Well, it did hurt a lot. I'm not trying to make you appear like the bad guy here, because i was the one who did not appreciate you and your kindness. I deserve what i had coming for me, but i dont have a double personality for goodness sake. Its just a self protecting way to fit the environment that is constantly changing, with friends leaving and new friends coming. With people that say and do stuff that's not within your control. To have emotions that is very complicated, and to think too much and so so many stuff.

Nvm, have a great life, god bless. Tell me when you want me back in your life.

I cant believe i can always write so much when it comes to you, and back space and rewrite over and over again. My heart feels so empty now. I may seem happy with so many friends. But perhaps its just another one of my act, because i'm such a good faker, such a good deceptor, procastinating again huh. Ryan's words hit me again, my facebook has so many siblings, but if i were to think twice who really knew me well. I guess one or two only, to be precise.

OKAY I'M SO DEAD, TEST AND HOMEWORK DUED TMR. I should not be doing a self reflection and thinking bout so many things at a time like this. Okay 12.30am i got to go study and get to bed soon, bb.

And he's smoking his last cigarette.

Hello people, here are the pictures of this few days. Hehe, i'm lazy to upload to facebook, and i know berlin wanna kill me for that o: haha.

9 semptember 2010, with berlin:





















































































8 september 2010, with bballers:





















































































7 september 2010, with class:




































































Okay, i hope my blog didnt make your comp lagggz.

Anyway, yesterday wasnt a special day or anything. Spent the entire day at home watching tv and smsing peopleeeeeeeee. I WAS BORED

Today, spent the afternoon uploading the pictures above. Then took a nap, went down to bball court to shoot. Then my neighbour came down, and so i played with his dog. Heheh, so cute <: Played til 7plus, ate my dinner. Bathed, sms sms sms. Just talked to ryan on the phone for one whole hour, omggggod. I got to go finish up on holiday assignments, and there's chinese test tmr. Oh gosh o:

September holiday assignment checklist:
Amaths TYS
Biology TYS (1)
Biology TYS (2)
Biology WB
Emaths EOY 2008
Emaths EOY 2009
Emath Revision Ex.9
Chinese WB.9
Chinese Poem Test
English Summary
CE Letter Writing
Chemistry Workbook
Chemistry TYS

Okay i am dead, but i will try to finish up, jiayou.