Hellooo its 1.30am now, and i'm eating instant noodles. I actually wanted to go on a diet, but i just couldnt control today. I hope i'll be able to wait an hour later before i sleep, or else i'll get fat fat fat. ):
Anyway, today i headed to school late, and it was raining. So i tried calling the cab for like 123456789x but there's no reply. In the end, i ran back home and asked my neighbour to fetch me to zhonghua. Its kinda hypocritical of me, because my dad would badmouth them in front of my family, but yet i'm acting all friendly in front of my neighbour, procastinating myself. Okay, so i reached home at 12, went back to class to grab my books, and ran to the ish to meet bballers and coach. Coach started playing with my dslr, and everyone became his model. Heh heh fun. <: Told mrs ngiam i'm going back to training next week, then she tell me next week's the last week of training before exams. I'm like wthhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. ): But nvm, at least i got some of my freedom back, thank you dad.
Waited for bballers to change, then headed to sengkang with emily, germaine and xiaoting. Javien came, and we went to yoshinoya to have our lunch, jingling and shannon were there too! :) Ate, and went to study at starbuckkkkkkks. HOHO :D They kept taking pictures until my battery died. I'll upload them soon okay? :) LAZY.
Did my homework and studied a bit, i guess it was rather a progressive day. I love my white chocolate mocha, but i'll still get the vomiting feeling after an overdose. I could only drink it bit by bit, but it still taste heavenly. :) Debbie came at around 5plus? Then we continued to do homework until 7. They kept singing songs, but i could concentrate with xiaoting's ipod. Love ya <:
We went to popular to get some stuff for coach's birthday. :) We're doing a big card for him, and we might be going to marina to picnic and fly kites. EXCITED! I'm planning something of my own too, my personal happenings. Then, took 163 with emily and debbie. They went emily's house to play while i continued my bus ride until some area near upp thomson road. Then i took another bus, and another bus, and another bus, and walked around until i got lost. Oh gosh, it was around nine plus then. Even though my phone has little contacts, i could still memorize a few people's contacts. Called to ask how to get home, which is kinda dumb O: Wanted to call my sister, but she's at work. AND I WAS LEFT WITH ONE BAR OF BATTERY. Took random buses to places i knew, but in the end i cabbed home. ): Wasted money. Zzz
I reached home late, and i was wondering why my parents did not call to check on me. So i called them, and they said they trust me a bit. HAPPY :D Its a few minutes to 2am, and my sister's not back yet. Oh, its 10 september now.
Happy 20th birthday sister!
Even though we hardly talk and we always quarrel, i'll still love you like family. I know you and huijie are closer than both of you towards me, i'll still treat you like my elder sister. We dont know much about each other, and we are like strangers. In our cold cold family, i know we always keep stuff to ourselves. I hope you will always be blessed by god, and love by others. You are gifted in art, and you're now studying in a arts school. I wish the best of the best for you, and sorry for all my childish behaviours. I am a young adult now, so you dont have to treat me like a child anymore. Have a great birthday, huiyun.
I'm alone at home now, and its kinda terrifying. I know i said i would leave you alone, and not bother you anymore. But seeing your face, your smile, and everything, i couldnt help it. I cant control my heart. Your every word, every action affects me deeply. I'll still get jealous over things you do to other girls, even though i'm not suppose to. I dont have that kind of rights anymore. I just want to rewind time. Even if we could, i guess you already regretted this relationship. I know you wouldnt see this, but i just wanna find a mean to express my heartfelt thoughts. I have this sudden urge to rush over to your house now, yes i know i'm annoying and stupid. But i just miss you too much. I miss your hugs and everything everything everything. I miss how we use to be, the past. I'm gonna be thick skin and try to save our friendship.
Okay, i have school early tmr. I have to go pack my bag and stuff. Can you believe it, i have a test tmr. ):
Its 2.30am now, i typed a whole chunk above, but decided to backspace all of them. I feel like a retard. I admit i've changed a lot, i change as time pass by, i feel that i'm a bitch, i'm superficial, materialistic, full of lies and crap. Perfectly imperfect, not. Sorry.