just woke up.
apparently my dream catcher doesnt work.
i'm in terrible mood.
D:
anyway.
dinner with baby later.
might be cheered up?
but i feel so sad for mummy.
coz nobody wan eat her dinner.
nobody pei her.
daddy overseas.
ue knw, sometimes i wish my dad isnt so busy.
i wan happiness for both of them.
if money didnt exist.
wont it be nice?
D:
dinner wasted!
have to throw away.
so uber super waste.
everytime lyk tat.
elder sister got into fight with mummy.
they are NOT talking.
so she dont wan eat.
second sister outside movie
with friends till 11pm.
she is alone.
then my mum veh sad.
but she dont wan say anything.
and i cant possibly say
" 妈咪, 你很sad是吗? 你还有我,我still爱你 "
but when i see her back.
looking out th window.
sitting alone at th corner of th sofa.
eating.
trying to stuff herself.
so th food wont go to waste.
its sad.
she misses her family.
she misses my dad.
she misses her hometown.
she misses th old times.
when my family was simple.
and happy.
wat has changed?
i changed too.
mre sensitive.
mre emotional.
mre closed up.
mre attentive to my family i guess.
O:
i seriously wan a new world.
i cant bear to see my mum so sad.
my elder sister crying at night.
and i'm th only one awake to hear them in silence.
i knw my dad is sad too.
he misses th family.
th old simple family we used to be.
th only happy one is my 2nd sister.
or maybe i just havent find out bout her.
maybe she's sad too.
i love my family.
but something is different now.
just not th same.
D:
but i cant show tat.
nobody understands anymre.
go bath now ba?
cheer up huiming.
and mummy too!
anyway,
exam ending soon.
yayness.
can finally de-stress.
and have fun.
jiayou.
(:
post soon?
♥