okay.
i seriously sleep too much.
frm yesterday 7pm till today 10am.
and th past few days
i've been sleeping as much.
but why am i still so tired?
someone tell me th reason why.
please.
D:
and i think something is wrong with me.
... ... ...
anyway,
i just found out ophelia is dead.
but i think tat made th painting even mre beautiful.
and motivational somehow.
monday no training.
somehow i feel sad.
coz i wan training!
even though i'm no good at it.
and training is tiring.
sian.
coach seem concern about my progress too much.
i think he knws something.
but him encouraging me makes me work harder.
(:
i wan to give up my netball ways.
i wan to but i cant.
netball made me who i am.
netball gave me so much so much.
and i have to give it up?
sorry i cant.
but i still MUST do so.
i can only promise i'll try.
tat's all.
mummy and elder sister argued.
now my mummy and daddy went overseas for work
and my elder sister went malaysia alone.
sian.
only left me and my second sister.
and i'm short of cash.
shitty ass.
i hope my family stays still.
please dont break away.
D:
oh.
primary school 30th anniversary was yesterday!
and i missed it.
coz i was already asleep at 7pm.
and th concert is at night.
fucker.
th tickets are lyk $10 each!
D:
anyway,
i hope my friends get back to normal soon.
it already th holidays.
and i wan everyone to spend it happily.
"everyone has problems,
th difference is how ue solve"
quote frm supermary zufar.
but i have paraphrased it.
(:
i can just say everyone isnt wrong.
coz everyone has their own feelings.
and problems.
and their own side of th story tat not everyone knw.
so nobody is at fault.
but everyone's solution to problems isnt always right.
so i guess th best way is to make peace.
and let it go.
forget it.
leave th past behind.
but that is just my opinion.
okay.
things are seriously out of hands.
my life is falling apart.
dawn calls me eagle.
and i feel even mre lyk an eagle now.
coz i think i'm at an eagle's mid 30s.
and i have to put on a hard choice.
which is really really painful.
i knw after tat will be great.
but i just cant face that challenge.
D:
anyway,
i can only talk to god now.
nobody understands anymre.
nobody cares.
post again soon?
♥