apparently mood swing week.
FUCKED UP
i need to cry out.
seriously.
but i cant show it thru.
and i dont wan to bother baby.
~!@#$%^&*~!@#$%^&*
i'm broke.
in need of money.
and i wan a new wallet!
new bagpack!
new shoes!
new pencilcase!
O:
huixuan birthday 2moro <3
must search my room for cash.
to buy presents.
coz i dont wan ask frm daddy and mummy.
okay.
i feel lyk i dont belong here.
coz i can only find one family photo.
taken when i was lyk 5 years old?
and there were many before i was born.
maybe they were happier without me.
D:
wat will happen if i didnt exist.
i knw th world will be a better place.
daddy will have to support only 4 instead of 5.
mummy will have to take care of one less person.
sisters wouldnt get into arguement with me anymre.
they would receive much more love and money.
teachers have to teach one less pupil.
they have to mark one less homework.
there will be another seat in th basketball team.
mre opportunity for other BETTER players.
i just knw if i died,
things would change for th best.
):
fucker.
i'm rotting here.
bored!
and nothing seem to make me happy
for real.
i have changed.
and deproved.
basketball trainings are gonna die.
i cant run as fast.
i cant play as well.
shitty.
arghh.
D:
<3 white roses.
<3 running away
away frm this cruel reality.
post again soon?
♥