okay.
today training was okay.
seriously muscles sore
and totally tired now.
so i shall not elaborate everything tat happened.
anyway,
i am uber sad now.
my dear friends are in a fight.
nobody is understanding each other at all.
why must everyone think bout themselves only?
seriously,
how many times have we used th word "i" instead of "they"
i can sense tat something bad is gonna happen.
shitty ass.
i'm stuck in th middle.
arghhh.
just take me away forever.
or maybe pour all th bad things on me.
th world should change for th better
and it would make life worth lving.
i just dont wan anyone to be sad.
it hurts and i understand how they feel.
anyway,
i'm damm pissed off with life.
and i am certain that relationships are stupid.
i wan no friendship.
no love.
no feelings.
this way it doesnt hurt at all.
and dear pea.
dont worry.
no matter watever,
i'll be by ur side.
and i'll support ue all th way.
so just cheer up!
th sun will shine eventually.
:D
and i'm confused.
"th only way to not lose in a game,
is to get urself out of it"
is it really true?
coz i am not sure i can face th challenge anymre.
i'm tired out already.
but coach has been encouraging me.
his words are really wise.
it motivates me lots!
and when coach talked to me alone after training.
encouraging me and asking whether i'm alright.
i almost cried.
but i cant.
anyway,
i doubt i have th courage to tell anyone
exactly how i feel.
stupid huiming.
ue are weak!
D:
fucking hell.
got super lot of things to do.
i wan to skip school!
2 mre days only.
so jiayou.
just hold on.
it wont be long till ue can just let go.
sian.
i'm seriously pissed off.
post again soon?
♥